The author reflects on their journey through addiction to nitrous oxide and the profound spiritual experience that altered their perception of reality. This transformation led to a deep exploration of the existence of God and the struggle to find evidence of divine presence, revealing the complexities of faith and personal truth.

The article explores a range of topics, including the struggles of job searching and phases of burnout, the challenges of leadership, and the exploration of faith and imagination in Christian belief. It also presents a narrative experiment involving a family's survival in a world where everyone has disappeared, along with reflections on pain, miracles, and human experience.